chapter 360

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Fuck My Life.

chapter 359

Dear Dairy, fine

Zzz. Am I forgotten?
I lost myself.

When I am trying so hard to catch up,
You all don't even bother to say "Hi."

Yours truly,
Me

chapter 358

Dear Dairy, fine.


Hello there dairy. I have started schooling almost a month.
I survived through 3 weeks and 4 days. 23 more months left to graduation.

Studying Nursing is not so easy as you think.
Being a nurse is far more complex of what you can ever imagine.
But it is my passion. P A S S I O N.
Biology = killer = stress = Die die must pass = A

My classmates. . .
Irritants. Like 'Gloria'
Friendly.
Jokers.
Gossipers.
Approachable.
Hypocrites.
2 years with people like them. But still, I managed to be with the better ones though.

Going to school and leaving school is TWO different thing.
It is so different that I cannot adapt to the environment. Like a walking zombie in nursing uniform. I can finally breathe when I am outside of school. My heart can finally beat at a normal rate. Further more, I am drained totally. Physically and mentally. Tests and exams are on their way = FML.

Everyday, I am alone. I do not enjoy school unlike in the past.
Where friends around me are awesomezxzxzx asses.
Close ones are not with me. At least, they are together. They have accompany unlike me.
Boo.

Period.

___

Lastly, I miss Bravo'07

Yours truly,
Me

chapter 357, BRAVO'07 POP

Dear Dairy, rainy.

17th April 2010, Saturday.

A memorable day for me.
A new beginning for them
A day where a chapter ends and a start of a new beginning.

Year 2007, they were young and innocent.
Year 2008, they were training through hardship.
Year 2009, they were ready for challenges.
Year 2010, they are ready to set sail for a new horizon.

My Pride.
BRAVO'07
Xiang Yew, Justin, Jonasson, Yong Jun
Rong Chang, Guo Wang, Jun Hao, Hiu Hang
Sunita, Shi Hui, Sze Hui, Ruyi
Vicky, Jun Jie

Informal shot :)

"BRAVO!"
My tears, just came rolling down my cheeks.
"THANK YOU INSTRUCTORS!"
I burst out in tears for the second time.

Every word felt so warm.
4 years of training these young men and women.
My effort paid off.
And I gained much more from it.

As your Asst. Platoon Commander, I want to say is:
When you all are lost, just come back.
I am always here, not going anywhere.
Take care, Brave Souls. Best wishes.
with love.

Lastly, they are the one.
AA1'10

My tears came falling down.
Misses.

Yours truly,
Me

chapter 356

Dear Dairy, Cloudy,


I am back. I am back. I am back.
Stupid.

After leaving that little corner of mine, I managed to see some light coming in from that little window. A little breeze. A little smile. But, that little corner I will return back.

When I was home the whole week. 20% smiling to the world. 80% facing walls.
I got depressed and emo.

Today, I attended my campus's orientation exercise. I feel nothing out of it.
And my class, hardly know my existence. 5% Chinese and others, 10% Indian, 85% Malays.


I am sad.

___

Tomorrow, is the 10th of April.
I dread of going to SJAB. Because tomorrow is the 10th.

One week left. Before, I start to cry on that day.
Knowing that I should not be crying. Should be smiling instead.
Saying, "See you all, again."

& I miss you.



Yours truly,
Me

chapter 355

Dear dairy, Rainy


I've not been sleeping, eating, behaving well.
Just feeling very lethargic. I am sad.

Knowing that, that day will soon to come.
Knowing that, things will change.
Knowing that, ... Knowing that, ...

I cannot think properly.
Seeing your happy faces, I am contented.
Knowing that, tears always filled my eyes.


I just want to cry so much.
& I need to stay strong.



Yours Truly,
Me

chapter 354

Dear Dairy, Sunny

28 March 2010,

Today, I spent my day out at the city. It was well spent.
Celebrated Xueling's 18th Birthday. We caught a movie, dined in a comfy restaurant and spent time at a cafe talking. Drowned in laughter today. Me likes.

Once again, Happy 18th Birthday Xueling!

___

I had a terrible night yesterday. The headache was mild but uncomfortable.
A feeling that cannot be expressed in words, churned inside me. I managed to survive.

It seems that I left it somewhere. I am reluctant to find it back.

But somehow, ...
I miss talking to you all. I miss sitting down together. I miss the laughter you all brought to me. I miss having fun with you all. I miss spending time with you all. I miss those times when you all came to look for me when facing problems. I miss HTH talks with you all. I miss the encouragements you all gave me. I miss those times when you all tell me you cared. I miss the 100% you all gave me. I miss ...

All these and more, I miss.
I want to find it back. I really want to.
But somehow, I think I should let it go. I think ... But I do not want regrets.
& why, do I still hold on? Someone, guide me.


Yours truly,
Me